A certain amount of bad stuff just bounces off of me when good stuff is happening too. I mostly don't even remember it a few minutes later. At some point one line gets crossed, and I start mentioning that I have a problem and would like help resolving it (especially if it's a relationship or job thing, but also when it's a hobby or project). Then there's the last line. I don't know the ratio or where the line is, but I recognize the internal sense that it is approaching, because I start being unwilling to mention things that bother me since I no longer believe that approach will change the environment or behavior.
Then eventually comes the day when the switch is turned all the way to 11 and I hear inside my head "I am no longer willing to work on this. This (relationship/job/project) is over as far as I'm concerned."
Yeah, this is full of mixed metaphors, but how my thinking/feeling works is hard to explain. Anyway, I wanted to jot this down to help me remember it.
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